Monday, January 18, 2010

Still

I am still living with friends. My new place will be ready soon, and I wonder what God has for me next. This has been an amazing couple months. I believe that God has grown me immensely through this time.

I LOVE my privacy. I love personal space. So it was not the easiest thing for me to pack all of my belongings and put them in storage, and squeeze the 'necessary" into one bedroom. I admit to being a bit depressed as the two week waiting period for the new place kept getting pushed back. Now, over two months later, I can say that I am thankful for this time.

I got a great opportunity to be a part of the Massie family. Chris and Julie took me in once before, when I first moved to Richmond, and they are so gracious and giving. I have gotten to know my "nephew" Spencer and I can say that I am pretty much in love. He is the funniest kid ever. I have had the chance to save some money, which has been a huge blessing. And I have gotten to see what it means to be a part of a family, not just worrying about my own agenda. It has been trying at times, but I love it. I will be sad to leave.

I am most likely going to be sharing my bedroom in the new place because I have a sister from church who needs a place to stay while she is waiting to move to the Dominican Republic to work with Haitian refugees in July. This will be a challenge also. I am excited about it. I want to be more like Jesus, and this is His way. To give of yourself.

It's been a couple months of me dealing with the loss of things. Loss of privacy, sleep (My room is next to the room of an adorable loud little baby), most of my CDs (my whole case is gone from my car), my entire set of keys fell in the snow before Christmas somewhere downtown..some little things, some not so little..led to a big pity party. I was not focused on others, just on me and my "don't haves". Couple that with the fact that I am doing all of this to move downtown to be closer to church and I have never lived in a truly urban place in my life.

WHAT AM I DOING? It's crossed my mind. All I can say is that through this time God has showed me that it's okay. It's okay to lose things that I feel I need. Life goes on. I am still here, and when I put my focus back on the Lord, on reaching out and loving others..I was absolutely fine!! I am not grumbling anymore. I am happy. I am content. This year is going to be an exciting one..

Philippians 4:12
I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.

Oh..if you have time check out the page I created for my friend Bekkah..she is an amazing woman of God who needs some help getting to Uganda so that she can work with the orphans.