I do not want to be a Christian that is always frowning upon others. I do not want to be a Christian who is passive towards ungodly behavior. Where is the balance? As I grow in my faith, I want every aspect of my life to honor God. I get excited and want to talk about him. All the time. Even my Christian friends seem to kind of zone out or just lose interest when I talk about God. So I find myself in a bad place, feeling lonely and judging them (which is not my place to do) for being more interested in temporal things than in a life dedicated to God. It's not fun. I know that I have sin in my life, and in no way do I think I am more holy than my friends, I just feel... different. I want to be used of God. I don't want him around just when I am having a bad day or want something. I want my life to touch others. I try to understand that my friends may have been in a close relationship before, but maybe they are in a dry period in their relationships with God. I am single, they are married and have more to occupy their time. I do realize these things, but I am still missing out on having another person to be excited about God with. Honestly, I am glad I have met some of the people out in blog world who are in love with the Lord, because it encourages me daily. On a happier note, our Bible study starts on Sunday and I am so ready to help bring other women to a place where they can meet and learn about God, and I know he is going to do some life changing. Can't wait!